I warned them all from the beginning.
I always said something along the lines of "I must advise you, I am stamped with an invisible warning. I will not commit. I will never marry."
Despite my best efforts, I'm beginning to feel some small cracks in my faux finish.
You know, when I look back on my little life, and all the women I've known ...
I can't help but think about ... all that they've done for me ... and how little I've done for them.
How they looked after me, cared for me ... and I repaid them by never returning the favour.
Yeah.
I used to think I had the best end of the deal.
What have I got?
Really?
Some money in my pocket.
Some nice threads. Fancy car at my disposal.
And I'm single.
Unattached. Free as a bird.
I don't depend on nobody.
Nobody depends on me.
My life's my own.
But I don't have peace of mind.
And if you don't have that, you've got nothing.
So ...
So, what's the answer? That's what I keep asking myself.
What's it all about?
You know what I mean?
Monday, October 15, 2007
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3 comments:
i don't think you are alone. i know of friends who are like that as well. though maybe you are the most extreme. the other friend who comes close, is one who IS looking. but meanwhile playing hard, and would not commit, "getting the best end of the deal", i suppose until he finds "the one". then the question would be... who's "the one". How to find? I suppose one will just have to believe one will know when it happens!
By the way, the line is a quote from Jude Law from the movie Alfie. It was his closing line before the show ended and I thought it struck a chord somehow :).
Friend.
You still have a long way to go yet. Open your heart to accept affections that comes along. When the right person is there, you'll know it.
-You'll get that urge to ask.
-You'll realise the fancy car and bachelorhood is suddenly unimportant.
Give it time.
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