Fearless

A friend of mine said I'm fearless. Up until now, I knew I wasn't. As of today though, I have become near fearless. I wonder what other fears could come up for me now?

Hands Down

Here's a song about the best date I ever had ...

Breathe in for luck,
Breathe in so deep,
This air is blessed,
You share with me.

This night is wild,
So calm and dull,
These hearts they race,
From self control.

Your legs are smooth,
As they graze mine,
We're doing fine,
We're doing nothing at all

My hopes are so high,
That your kiss might kill me
So won't you kill me,
So I die happy
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
To break or bury,
Or wear as jewelery,
Whichever you prefer ...

The words are hushed lets not get busted,
Just lay entwined here, undiscovered,
Safe in here from all the stupid questions
"Hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb,
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear ...
So we can get some

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me,
So won't you kill me,
So I die happy
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
To break or bury,
Or wear as jewelery,
Whichever you prefer ...

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
The dim of the soft lights,
The scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers,
And the time on the clock when we realized it's so late,
And this walk that we shared together
The streets were wet
And the gate was locked so I jumped it,
And I let you in,
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
And you kissed me like you meant it
And I knew that you meant it,

That you meant it,
That you meant it,
And I knew,
That you meant it,
That you meant it ...

Massages

This week I had massage four times. The venues were :

Monday - Soul of Wellness (Uptown)

Tuesday - Carnauba Autospa (Glenmarie)

Wednesday - Crystalspa (Section 14)

Saturday - Urban Retreat (The Curve)

That's like around RM 300 for 4-5 hours of full body massage. Not too sure why I'm that into spas last week. Could be because my office had no power for 4 days (it was like a sauna) so I hung out most of the time working from hotels & cafes. Or could be because I was quite stress at the upcoming events. Or maybe it was so happen I was there (e.g. waiting for a seminar, or having my car washed, etc.). Come to think of it, I had actually just walked in and gotten a full body massage without thinking too much.

The best place? I think its the Autospa coz it's free for me :).

I'm An Idiot

I've got to be the biggest idiot in this world.

I've done many risky things in life. I've taken huge budgetary risks that may cost me to lose my job. I've done things without a moment's hesitation. I've even risk my life a few times.

Yet I could not do one simple thing. Ok there were 2 simple things I couldn't do and I've done one of them, but now I'm stuck at the other.

I try to absolve the blame by being a perfectionist, but should I care whether it's perfect or not? Actually I know the answer to that and yet I still want it to be perfect.

I try to think that I'm shy but then again I know I'm not and most people would say the same as well. So why do I get these anxiety attacks?

I tell other people to "Just Do It" but when it comes to me, I'm probably the biggest hypocrite of all.

I need to get to the bottom of this fast, or else I'd probably not going to get over it for the rest of my life.